This post has been on my heart for a while, but it has been so difficult to write because I know most people either know this, don't want to or don't care. But this conviction has been heavy on my heart, because something so wonderful cannot be kept to myself. So I hope if you're one of those that think this is lame, untrue or can't be bothered reading, you will just spare a couple of minutes to hear me out, just this once.
Did you know you are incredibly, unconditionally loved? I know this as fact no matter how "lame" you think it is. There is a God who has been with you since the day you were born, through the good and bad times in your life, even through the awful things you may have done, and his love has always remained the same. Whether you have hated him, kept him at a distance or believed what will be will be, he loves you. There is no one who loves you as much as he loves you today.
It has taken me 27 years to 'get this', and I am sure my understanding is still limited. My life was ruled by rebellion and guilt, because I actually always believed in Him, but I didn't feel like I was worthy of who I believed he was. That was my own battle. And instead of accepting his love, the guilt and lies told me I wasn't good enough, so instead of running toward this love, I ran away from it.
As I sit here typing this, I cannot recall any radical event in my life that brought this on - no blinding light, or vivid dream of God telling me to wake up! It has been a gentle nudge since the day I was born, of God calling me to be by his side, and then finally turning to him when all hope was lost. And he still changed my life and showed me his love, despite everything I had ever done.
You have an inheritance to this love, just as much as I do, whether you believe, understand or think you deserve it or not.
Talking about my faith is so tricky, not because no one really asks (and I really don't I hide it), but it's so taboo and people are so scarred by man. I was reminded tonight that our hope and trust is not in man, but in Jesus the Son of God, and all the things that are man-made - especially religion - with the best intentions mostly take us away from God.
When I started to come out of my depression, God revealed how much he loved me, just the way I was. I'm still nothing special, not on human-standards anyway, but to Jesus I am so loved and I've learned to love my humour and other 'plain' talents because He gave them to me. And the point I'm really trying to get across is that it applies to you as well, no matter where in your life you are right now. If he can love someone like me, make someone like me a mom to a beautiful little girl and change my insignificant life, he can do it for anyone.
And if you think this 'Jesus' thing isn't for you, you're wrong. If you think there are too many unanswered questions, you're wrong. If you think giving your heart and life to Jesus will spoil and take the fun out of life, you are so wrong.
I read a book called "More Than A Carpenter" which is about an atheist who was bent on proving Jesus was not our God and saviour, and in doing so, he proved it was in fact true. If something like this interests you, I will be happy to purchase the book for you and have it sent to you (Kindle and Hard Cover). I loved it, and I am really happy to buy you a copy.
Please send me an email if you would like me to send you the book. If you have any question whatsoever, you can also email me or leave a comment. I would love to get in touch.